The Panda Wars

I have decided that sleep and I have a dysfunctional relationship. I don't get into bed until 2am and then I leave at 6:40, then when I do try and spend some time with him we end up getting interrupted by noises and lights or I toss and turn. I tried to actually make amends with him the other day 9:30-7 but alas now I just have sleep coma. Oh well it was never meant to be. On another note never never EVER! give a guy your phone number. I mean even if you are doing it for a project. I did that and now this guy won't leave me alone! we've had all of two real conversation but he keeps on inviting me to things I don't want to go to, five things in a span of four days! AND never talk to them either. We have a waffle bar in the 'rot' (cafeteria) and I went to drop off my coffee while my waffle was in the waffle maker. Out of the corner of my eye I see a guy start to flip it back over so I run quickly to his side to stop him. He laughs and moves on But the guy next to him won't. He comes over to me and starts commenting on my fastness and then he starts talking about invader zim for some reason, I don't know why!  as I try and sneak away he jabs in, "my name is Mike, what's yours?"...I turn around and say Emily "oh Emily, that's a beautiful name, it's like the name of a princess, are you a princess?" FOR GOODNESS SAKE all I wanted was a WAFFLE! this is when I make a quick getaway. Boys....stop being creepy. Really? I mean ReAlLy?! WHY? I do not want to date, I am so marvelously happy being single. Coincidentally Krystell tells me that I seem like I'm the kind of girl to already be married. In other news, Pandas are near the brink of extinction. That is what lead to the eventual hanging of the stuffed panda bear in my room. My roommate has a thing for panda bears, and she's doing an speech on raising awareness about the panda bear situation. Therefore one of my friends on my hall decided it would be funny to hack her facebook posting picture of a panda that read, "I hate panda bears, they should all die!". This lead to ultimate panda explosion on the Ethernet.  All of my roommate's friends were like, NOOO I can't believe you would say that, Pandas are part of God's creation!  While she tried to explain to them that it was a joke, the girl from down the hall came into our room and kidnapped a small stuffed panda bear resulting in a hanging. All this to say, my hall is weird and I can't sleep at night with that thing staring at me.

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The River Bed

There are days when God seems like a blocked stream, trickling onto leaves. You sit in the river bed and wait impatiently for the dam to break, but the water doesn't pour forth. Even though you are standing in His path, you can only absorb the water through your finger tips. This feeling makes me want to jump in a lake or river even though it's close 57 degrees outside and raining. I usually really enjoy the rain, but I didn't sleep last night and I'm in a fog. My brain is all mixed up and I feel like I need some encouragement. But not in the sense of "Oh Emily, I'm sorry I hope you feel better". I want a devotion. I look to God, I'm reading his word more and more but I feel like I need another person to come along side me and tell me something personal and biblical. I've had so many girls come into my dorm and ask questions, telling me their stories. Each time I send them away with scripture but I wish there was someone I could go to. It's not as though there aren't wonderful people around me that couldn't help me. I'm just not sure what's wrong with me. I want to feel exhilarated again. I almost had it today, The bus stopped earlier than my bus stop so I just got off there and decided to walk the rest of the way. Then I looked over where the train tracks were and I saw a path, so I went over and the path went on between trees and alongside the train tracks. I finally felt a bit of God there. I was alone and had my thoughts to myself and God. The ground was wet and I felt as if I could walk forever. eventually the road ended but it reminded me so much of Oregon, i felt a little homesick. I miss walking out my front door and smelling Autumn. I miss being able to walk where ever without fearing for my safety, that I could go on long walks in the rain and snow in fallen leaves and completely surrounded by life untouched. All week i wanted to find a swing set, I miss swinging but even if I did find one I don't think I could be there alone. God has made my life more blessed than I could have ever imagined though. I mean I have so much to be thankful for, that I ever did have those feelings of discovery and mystery. That he gave me an eye for seeing the beauty in things that normally are plain or ugly. God really has blessed me with a wonderful family, extended included and amazingly funny and spiritual friends. Even the friends that aren't spiritual challenge me to pour into them all I have because if I only have one life to live I'm going to try and make the people around me as happy and blessed as I am. God has wonderful things in store for me. If I intend to live an extraordinary life i have to start becoming an extraordinary person. and these little ditches in the road are God's way of shaping my character. I need to schedule some God and me time all alone in the wilderness, cause that's where I usually find him. it's where I talk to him out loud and cry for his spirit. He makes me better and fills my soul so I can pour it out once more. Just writing this helps the dam in the metaphor break a little more. Soon the river bed will be filled again and I can regain my strength. If i follow in the way of the Lord I will not be defeated. Choosing his course will push me further to speak for his cause. If he is willing to use me then i want him to clean me out.