A Child Like Faith

When we are young we are free. We don’t fear anything and everything is new. Nothing has been tainted with skepticism or what grownups like to call reality. A flower is a flower without its thorns and a snake is harmless. But as we grow older we start developing fears and insecurities. What if people don’t like me? What if I fail? What’s going to happen next? What if it’s all a lie? And then we try and fix these fears by compensating or ignoring them; I’ll do what everyone is doing, I’ll never fail, I’ll plan for everything, you can’t trust anyone. As we grow older we don’t get rid of these fears we just dress them up to sound more sophisticated and intellectual like no one has ever heard of these things before; I’m staying ahead of the curve, I’m not jumping into things, I’m insured for everything, truth is relative. In actuality we are all morons. To think that no one else has these fears and that we can simply ignore the problems or fix the inevitable. We are all too stubborn to admit that we are vulnerable. We want to be the person that has it all figured out, that others can look up to for support. The problem is that if you want people to look up to you, to want to be like you, then they are going to inherit the fear that drives you; the one that you didn’t want them to have. You wanted their drive to come from a healthier place. The sophisticated intellectual place that you make yourself believe you have. Nobody is fooled of course. The only thing we have been fooled to believe is that others have it all figured out, those people who you look up to. Guess what, you’ve inherited their fear. We always try to get back to this original innocence and fearlessness of being a child. Everyone wants to grow up until they do. Because when they do they ‘know’ too much, or at least that’s what they think. They say the world is a worse place once you grow up and that ignorance is bliss. Honestly the world hasn’t changed and the world a child lives in is the same as the adult who parents him. Fears only arise when you put importance on something that can be lost. My God cannot be lost. Therefore I have no reason to fear. If I place my trust in God then knowledge and wisdom discern truth from lies, my future is eternally secure, my failure is his gain, and God is enough for me. This doesn’t mean I never fear or have sadness. Pain still exists in the world and even a child will cry when something is scary or they are hurt. I have to constantly remind myself to stop trying so hard to meet the demands of an insecure world and their lashing out at me is simply screaming from their own pain and anger. This world is a scary place and bad things do happen but I will face those with trust in my God that he has my future. Peace cannot be won from fears but from a firm foundation of the truth.