What my life might be like now...

I've been waiting for this moment for awhile. I told everyone around me, all my friends and family and even strangers that today was the day that I would be free from the brace. Because today was my doctor's appointment and we would figure out how to get rid of this cyst so I could live my life without the inconvenience or pain. Well first I was already in a rough mood, then I was lost getting there and then I had to wait for an hour in the cold waiting room. When he finally came in, he looked at it, twisted it around a bit and then tested my strength. Then he told me that there was nothing he could do, surgery was ill advised, the pain might go away, but I would have it for the rest of my life. He said that I should be able to do normal things and it wasn't a big deal. I kind of became angry at that point because right now I can't even grasp a doorknob without feeling pain or discomfort, I can't carry a glass pan without my wrist giving way. The doctor at the ER had given me hope that as soon as I was able to see another doctor that I would be healed and I wouldn't have to worry that I couldn't get into bed or type for long periods of time or cut anything. You can tell that I'm bitter can't you? Maybe just a little. Because on the way home from that downfall the radio was playing a hundred years by Five for Fighting and I was rearranging my visions of how I wanted my future to go, now with a brace on my arm and not being able to serve or do anything for myself. I'm a little melodramatic right now but seriously I had my hopes up and I really had such a little opinion of my cyst. That it was an easy fix. But since I've had my brace I've been one handed which is frustrating. Anyway I'm waiting for a second opinion or at least surgery. In other happier news, I had a wonderful time in culpeper with Krystell! I love her family! They are wonderful hospitable people, thank you so much if you are reading this! We went to davis street and had a wonderful time and hung out with her family, playing volley ball. When we came back to campus Liliya had done some spring cleaning. The floors were GOREGEOUS!! I am so thankful for her. It's too bad she is thinking of moving off campus. i hope she does well (= Anyway then later we went over to the westover and watched Once Upon a Time. I'm really starting to get addicted to that show even though some of the acting is horrible. At least Rumpelstiltskin is amazing! Andy made me an awesome cd at my persistence. Ironically enough, any cd that a guy has given me has had the hallelujah song. Weird. Thanks for the CD! I'm enjoying the new sounds. This morning was the weirdest morning ever! well at least for awkward moments between roommates. Claire, Krystell and I had gone to breakfast but Krystell was falling asleep in the booth. Then she went to tickle my knee. NoT OKaY! She said she would stop if she could hold my "baby" hands. She thinks they are adorable cause they can't even fit around an orange. So she's sitting there just feeling my hands. I am so weirded out by this roommate. Claire looks over and asks, "why are you caressing her hand?" Krystell-" Cause it's a wittle baby hand." (Baby talk). I just look over, "Yeah that's a little odd." Krystell says, "It's okay, we're roommates, we do weird stuff all the time." I laugh "actually Krystell that makes it all the more worse haha, remember the convo on friday and control yourself haha." as I remove my hand from her's. If anyone doesn't know what convo was on friday, it's okay. It was highly inappropriate because we had parents and cfaw in the room during a homosexuality talk. >.< Not Okay.